30.6.05

are we just a sum of different parts or more?

I have just read this. And I feel a must to say something. I have noticed that, especially some computer freaks (sorry to generalize), can’t really understand how the nature works. Maybe I can try to explain this in “computer language” first. I don’t know anything about computers. I really don’t. There were times I used to think that there are a lot of useless files on my computer, some system files or something. Some weird files I never use. Never ever (or so it seems or so I thought). Would it be smart to delete the files I don’t know? NO! They have to be there, that is why they put them there in a first place. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not talking about downloading some software or whatever and when you remove them, nothing bad happens. Of course you can cut your hair and nails, nothing extremely bad will happen. I imagine that it is the same with hardware, they put together all the particles which are necessary for normal working. I can not think of a reason why anything would be redundant or unnecessary. Maybe not all the details are essential but still they are there with a specific function. Like in life.

Furthermore, life is not a machine. Even if the scientist can isolate or synthesize every single molecule. Do you think you just put those molecules together and that will work? Wrong. No life, no nothing. Just a soup. Dead soup. Life is more than just a sum of different parts.

Till now you could get my message, I think. Every single organ is important, every small one too. It is there for a reason. It is just that it took years and years to understand why we need this and that. And we still don’t know everything because is too complex. It is all connected in a very many-sided way. If you didn’t know, appendix has a very important role in the hormonal balance. Even fat tissue for instance is a very important for hormonal response too. Another very popular thing was to have your tonsils taken out. And then there is no barrier in the throat. Every single flue I get comes down to my lungs. I used to have a sore throat, now I have bronchitis. Not good. Just because they were convinced that part can be taken out and that will help to solve the problem. Either they didn’t understand a thing or they didn’t know of any better solution/preservation or both.

I don’t deny that sometimes the cut out is the most appropriate solution of the problem. Sometimes it is the only way. I don’t know about computer (machine) world but in an organism you can put a small part away and other parts will take a part of the function of the missing part. Off course it depends what, where and when something goes wrong. You can not replace the whole person. To come back to this... come on, to cut some parts out because they presumably have no essential function, this is insane. Totally insane. Life is not just like that, if something is not necessary at the first glance it is not necessary at all.

29.6.05

link test

Še 3x gremo spat in gremo.

Sej ne, da sem hotla res to povedat, ampak nekje pač moram testirat, če se res takole dela linke :)

23.6.05

a solitaire

It looks like my life is more and more like a solitaire. No, not like being alone, not like brilliant stone, I mean like a card game solitaire. Well, you have some control, you play it after all. You know all the tricks and what might be a good move. You can be really good at it. Nevertheless, you can not control how it is going to turn out at the end. You can be better and better but there is also luck. (Isn’t it strange how close are words luck and *uck?) It is also luck, for sure. Like in life.

I'm telling you: my life is a game of solitaire. In fact, it is even worse when you think you can control the whole situation. :)

20.6.05

windy?

Has anybody been to Levkada in Greece? Vasiliki, wind surfing?
We have a plan to go there. For three weeks. Can't wait!

Samo še 12x gremo spat :)

15.6.05

274

I don’t know about you but when I see 12 new posts per day, I will read them all. Today the number was 274! I will never read them. Never ever. It is too much. So, I have deleted all the subscriptions of blogs I don’t read daily (mostly highly geekish or highly philosophic blogs). Now I'm subscribed to 80 blogs or something like that, that must be ok, I guess. Hey, how many posts per day do you read? 1-10? 10-20? More?

10.6.05

to pie

I think my coworkers are really nice. They are. But there must be a woman (or more of them?) whose mom didn’t tell her that she should sit down when having a pie. Can you believe that she come every morning, doesn’t seat on the perfectly clean desk, no, she just (I didn’t see her but that is the only explanation) bend her knees and, half standing, have a pie. Small yellow liquid droplets on the desk do not disturb her to wash the hands and leave. The next one who gets that yummy toilet... what should she do?! To clean, oh no, it is easier to just bend knees and just... oh, I hate them. Maybe there is just one woman doing that in our neighborhood. One too much. They said that toilets for women are much cleaner when compared to toilets for men. I haven’t been in a toilet for men for a while, so I won’t judge ;)

8.6.05

no time

I know our time is just the matter of our priorities. But, come on, how many people you know place friends before the job? There are times when we say we don’t have a time, “sorry, but no time, you know, I’m very busy…”. The truth is you have some time. Just not for that. Just don’t feel like doing that/ meet someone/etc. But sometimes, very rarely I guess, we really don't have a time. To be honest, then we don't even bother to explain what else it has to be done, because there is NO time.

2.6.05

a lecture

How many lectures will I have to give before I will stop with this stage fright? I mean, come on, I’m not frightened or making a big thing out of it. In opinion of others I give good lectures. But I want to be free as a bird and maybe a shortcut exists ;) It is kind of funny, when talking to friends I’ m relaxed and funny and interesting talker, when the boss is sitting there and some others… I am just interesting and maybe funny because I’m not relaxed at all. I would like to be me, me me, but I’m not. Hope it is just a matter of practice.